The 365 Project

Got some more of my LADY LOKI outfit made today!! :)
I’m so excited to be going to my first comic con, though have huge horns, a staff and all in green and gold on a two hour train journey from my small town is going to be intresting! :) i will upload some pictures tomorrow, let me know what you think??
But for now im just going to upload so pictures and vids of KING CHARLES when i saw him in Bristol last month……. HE WAS AMAZBALLS <3 

lOk self wallowing over!
it was just something i need to get out there it had been building up all day!
so for all those out having a bit of a quarter life crisis, try doing what i do and see if it helps.

1. Write down everything that is getting to you let all you frustration out, you might find some things come out that you weren’t expecting. i can be a sentence to 1000 pages.

2. Have a little Cry if you need too.

3. Give yourself a maximum of a HOUR to self wallow. you will find setting a limit actually helps.

4. As your time comes to an end put on a very motivational song to help you change you patten of thought. here are some that might help.

Watsky - Moral Of The Story Is = Getting you dreams

Little Black Sandals - Sia = When you had to walk away from someone you love

Raise Your Glass - P!nk = If you think your not good enough/or different

Through With You - Maroon 5 = For that Asshole

On Top of the World - Imagine Dragons = For when life just gets to you and you need reminding that your awesome

O. V. E. R. U. - Daniel Bedingfield = For that Bitch

Beautiful Flower/Because i am a Queen - India Arie = For my girls that feel that there not enough

and if all fails, go to youtube, find Kandee Johnson and watch either Bad day or how to be awesome!

Last Step 5. Remember that wallowing does nothing to help anything. its not making you feel any better is it. So do your hair, put on some lipstick, watch a film that always makes you laugh or whatever you love doing that makes you feel a bit more YOU and make yourself smile after a while you will realize that your no longer faking it. If you need to talk I’m here! 

“You are more beautiful then you know, more loved then you realized and more talented then you can dream”

Love you 

its been a few month, from when i last posted something, and in a way i feel like a failed myself a little bit… but more honestly i think its that i felt that if i didn’t write down whats happened from when i last posted then, maybe nobody will realize how lame my life is and thus for it wont count.

So the film i was meant to be working on (working in the film industry is my dream :) ) that i have been working on and off for the last few years now to get of the ground looked like it was really going to get made, there were mock posters and meetings casting things, thats right my dream was right there on a well earned plate ready for me to live the life i want all i had to do was wait till mid april for the last meeting to sign off on everything. So thats what i did from the start of march i put my life on hold yet again for this film and waited….. and waited….. and waited. now its the first of may and Nothing. I think the hardest part is that nobody bar my dad in my family is in the arts. so nobody understands that once you have been on stage or directed or sung to a audience knows That feeling that feeling that is irreplaceable with any other job and what you would do to live it! So no one in my family really understands how upsetting it really is. Being that i practically no relationship with my mother aka the megabitch No1 has felt the need to tell my Aunt and uncles and cousins and grandparents how lazy i am and how i have no drive plus she is surprised i didn’t have a kid already even though i have only ever had one serious boyfriend (hmmm i wonder why we dont get on :P) all because i waited a month for something that hasn’t come through. what adds to it is i cant drive and we live in the middle of nowhere so i am stuck at home.
my dad was just made bankrupt so i cant ask for lesson, i want to pay for them myself but for that i need a full time job and to get a full time job i need to be able to get there and to get there i need a car! i know this sound really middle class problems but what i mean by all this i am wasting my 20’s away sat in my room doing nothing and loosing friends by the day.

So im in a bit of a self obsessed funk about what the fuck to do next?? any suggestions?????? :)  

Sorry for this i promise i am back for good now! and will continue to push myself in some sort of direction also I SWEAR next upload will be much more lighthearted!

Hope you are all well
Love to your mothers XXXXXXXXXXX